I'm a bitch, I feel guilty for having opened my mouth, I'm doing better business as usual ... and I shut
I am worthless, I hate myself... et ce n'est rien de le dire...

Today, 6 October, I celebrate my seventeen years ...

Happy Birthday Me XD

I'm fed up

"i don't want to loose you, i only lie for you to give in to me, i enough deceived the world, and turned and turned and turned around for you to answer me."

Superbus Lyrics

"when I scrolled by the time your eyes
when we are no more than old lover
I would then, that the memory of me
Is what you'll be there?
Is what you'll be there?
I aged this is on
I changed a lot
of time where without respite where you kissed me in the neck
if I'm not beautiful, if i'm not stronger
you love me again?
oh my old love
what will you say when my body will be heavy
He is tired ... tired to move this world
I loved making my life with you these days
I loved making my life ... my old love
oh my old love
my eyes will be off a little more each day
turned towards the past and its surroundings
I'm not afraid of death if you go after me
I wait for you outside, I wait for you there
oh my old love
oh my old love

oh my old love
but do not worry
we are not there yet
oh my beautiful love"

I wake, in habits incessant who invades my life ,
I listen to songs that are always too good or too simple,
I write with uncertainty in a language I do not know well ,
never knowing if I write really what my head tells ,
I get depressed about the futility of life,
but all is well ...
Why? Because it is quite necessary.
i wake, late at night,
I go from room to room to room...because I'm bored ,
Then I draw, but without much talent, this is just my little ideas poorly transcribed on paper,
Then I Write , while praying God that I have talent for that, at least that,
I stroked my dog in the most absolute silence in order not disturb anybody ,
but all is well ...
Why? Because it is quite necessary.
and at last they all woke up one by one, then I smile,
Why? Because it is quite necessary.

There, for the moment I feel depressed ...but I know that later in the day,this feeling, depart from me.

(by me not surprisingly I suppose ... )